Category Archives: Rants

Just me being me aka I’m so annoyed and I need to get this out.

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So, My sister is the type of person that anyone verbalizing their feelings to her gets her on the defenisive immediately and me having a ton of mental health issues, don’t know how to emotionally deal with that on a daily basis. So I, being me, tend to bottle things up and her being, her doesn’t get that so when I have had enough aka reached my breaking point and it all spills out she just gets defensive and starts asking me whats wrong like she didn’t do anything to make me mad. Now that you have an understanding of this, here we go.

So my sister gave me for Christmas one year a reuseble fliter for my coffee machine and she had one herself and all was good. Then she moved and it didn’t make it to her apartment so now she no longer has one and instead of buying another reusable fliter she bought coffee fliters and is now out of them. Then last week she broke her ankle and can’t go anywhere because she’s in a cast that can’t get wet, and we are taking public transportation and it’s winter so there’s snow.

So we are now sharing mine and I had instant coffee but she wanted that, now she doesn’t understand that if she has both the instant coffee and my fliter, I can not make coffee at my home. And shes being defensive towards me because I want me fliter. and I woke up in arthrits hell and my legs may or may not have given out about four or five times today and it’s not all about the fliter at this point.

She wants me to do her laundry, when she can do her own laundry because it’s inside the building and she’s in a walking cast and has a boot and shes basically throwing in my face that I should just yes her to death because her ankle is broken. oh and I came over to share my fliter and to see if she needed anything and she wants me to clean her house and next week she wants me to stop at four different stores because she can’t and while I didn’t break my ankle it’s like she forgets I’m in pain and my legs give out on me and I need to clean my own house and do my own laundry and she has other people she can call and I’m so stressed and I basically just knocked on her door and took my fliter while also yelling she couldn’t have the fliter and the instant coffee. Then I told her to do her own laundry because I was in pain.

Can you tell I’m at my breaking point? also if things weren’t bad enough I can’t update my site at the moment and I can’t go see Scream six because my sister can’t go with me and I don[t want to go by myself.”

What I want……

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So I know I’ve been complaining about this the last couple of posts, but it doesn’t say FREEBIE ZONE on my forehead. I have been talking to someone new for about two weeks and in that time he has asked me to borrow Ten dollars, which I told him no and today he asked me to order him a sub. Like he’s the one with a job and he lives with his mom. Like, we aren’t in a relationship and even if we were, I want someone to buy me stuff not me take care of them. He’s also hitting my sister up for joints when it’s not her job to support his habits either.

My latest Ex, keeps coming to my door saying he wants to talk, but as far as I am concerned, we don’t have anything to talk about. He slapped me and I’m not forgiving him for that, we will not be getting back together. I am not putting up with abuse anymore, besides our relationship was toxic as hell anyways.

I am on a dating app and getting messages from both men and women, I am bisexual, I don’t think I’ve mentioned on here. I am not looking to rush into anything serious right now because I am keeping my options open.

I have been getting a lot of follows on Instagram lately, I don’t know if it’s coming from here or the dating app that I have insta connected to. I have an appointment with my new therapist tomorrow and I’m trying to decide what I want to tell her and how much I want to vent.

WTF

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So management sent a letter out on Saturday morning about what transpired on Friday night with the security guard key situation. Someone who lives in this building as the master keys of everyones apartment, so they were going to change everyones locks and issue new keys. The locksmith is here and changing my lock, so I ask him do I get my new key from him or management. simple question, right. He tells me that the old keys will still work. Huh?!? What?:?

That doesn’t make any fucking sense, if the old keys still will work then why change the fucking locks at all. if the old keys still work then the person with the fucking master key can still get in my apartment. I can’t with this building logic.

Computer problems

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My computer screen is broken, I have to use my TV as a screen which is making it difficult for me to be online. I really can’t afford a new computer and to fix mine will be more money then it’s worth. I’ll try to post as much as possible from my phone or tablet.

Five things that annoy taller then average people

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As a female that has always been taller then my peers, there are some things and questions that get old after awhile. At age twelve being six foot I would answer the questions ; How old are you? How tall are you? Do you play basketball? With a smile. In my mid thirties, I have to say these questions are much more annoying now. I will still answer the How tall are you question when asked but in general I hate when I answer the Do I play basketball question as No I do not, the asker gets offended as if how dare I not.

Here are the top five things in general that annoy me.

 

– Being asked if I play basketball or volleyball.

When I was a kid I played basketball for fun, however when I entered high school I lost the interest. There are a lot of shorter females that are wonderful basketball players. A persons height shouldn’t determine whether they are good at a sport.

 

– Shopping for jeans/leggings/pants

I hate shopping for clothes, especially pants. I am 6’2″ and plus size, it is never a pleasant experience. They are always to short or long enough and tight.  I wish clothing companies would get with the program and realize women are not all cookie cutter sizes.

 

– Being asked how tall I am and/or Being told I am tall

I usually answer how tall I am when asked unless I don’t feel like being bothered. Sometimes I’m in a bad mood and don’t want to answer the height question, I don’t owe anyone anything. On the flip side someone stating I am tall is annoying as hell. When I am in a really bad mood I may ask you how short you are.

 

– After stating my fear of heights, being asked why I’m scared as I’m so tall.

This question is so dumb I’m not even going to explain it.

 

– Hitting my head on low ceilings, ceiling fans

If you know your house as ceiling fans and/or low ceilings, how about you warn me instead of letting me knock myself out.

 

Short entry, my laptop is officially dead but I just got a kindle fire. Planning on keeping the site updated

 

 

 

 

Seven things other people do that annoy me

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I really don’t like to be around people in general and only really go out if I have an appointment or need something from the store. Honestly people in general get under my skin which is why I only really spend time with my SO and that’s about it, people lucky if I answer the phone for them.

Lying about dumb things or lying in general:

I don’t like when people lie to me, especially when they start drama or start a rumor and when caught in the lie they cry. I am grown and there are certain people who I know read my blog that lie about shit that don’t make sense. There is this “friend” that I have that lied about seeing one of my family members a couple of months ago. Who also started a rumor about me in the building we both lived in and blamed it on a couple of innocent people, basically started a ton of drama and I was ready to beat these two innocent people asses over some shit that came out of her mouth. When she was caught, she cried…that’s what people who when they get caught in lies. STOP LYING.

There is honestly no reason to lie about anything and it’s pointless to confront this bitch because she won’t own up to shit. To this day she still denies the drama she started over the summer. Matter fact she is still holding true to the lies she told on another situation that she wasn’t even apart of originally, a situation she inserted herself in to be relevant. I should have known she was wacked when I found out she know’s all these bitches from my past that I no longer associate with because they cause drama including “Crazy Girl”

Moving on….

Walking really slow:

I am tall so I walk faster then shorter people, my legs are longer. I really hate when people walk slow and then like are all over the sidewalk so I can’t pass. Some people have driving rage, I have walking rage.

Stopping out of nowhere in the middle of the aisle at the grocery store or mall:

When I’m walking behind someone in the store and they just stop out of nowhere in the middle of the walkway and don’t move over.

Walking in front of your very young children:

There is no reason ever that your two year old child is walking behind you…can’t tell you how many times I have seen this bullshit in Buffalo. I also can’t tell you how many times I have pulled a young child that wasn’t related to me out of the fucking street. If you do this..SMFH

Acting tough on social media aka being a “online gangster” or a “phone gangster”:

this doesn’t need examples

Treating me as if I am a grocery store and only calling/texting when you need something:

There are several people I know that text me lists of stuff they need from me and that’s the only time they text me.

Always talking about drama:

I know someone who only calls when they got drama going on, I hate that shit.

 

 

 

Have to mention

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Please don’t spam my comments with the same comment on every post, if you wish for me to check your website out just mention it in a comment once or direct message it to me via twitter. I will check it out when I have the time, I promise. If you want to exchange links that is fine, you can DM me a msg on twitter or comment on one of my posts.

 

Thank you

I don’t want your brand of crazy ; ex friends and such

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I am tempted to give this girls name in this post but I don’t use names on this blog for anyone so for this post she will be referred too as crazy girl. I’ve known crazy girl for about four or five years and we used to kick it real hard. After I moved out of the area we both lived in we had a falling out as at the time I had a payee with my disability and she was mad that I refused to make her my payee. I really wanted to be my own and about a year later I became my own. So after we stopped talking and I moved to the upper west side, I got a message on facebook one day from her boyfriend’s page. He had been arrested but I didn’t know that or why because me and her weren’t talking.

I ended up running to her on the bus and she told me he got locked up and why he got locked up. Like a idiot I started hanging out with her again, Crazy girl has a shoplifting problem and she explained to me she was arrested at walmart and was currently going to court to deal with the arrest. So on black friday 2014 I agreed to go to the mall with her because what idiot would shoplift on the one fucking day that they train all retail employees to watch out for shoplifters.

She said she had money and just wanted to look around so I went, we get to the mall and pass some fucking police in the mall and this crazy bitch still fucking shoplifts. Long story short, the police were called and since they were already at the mall..it didn’t take them long to show up. She tells the store manager that I was shoplifting too, I wasn’t. I wasn’t arrested, she was. I was still pissed as that weekend there were pictures of me being questioned by the police floating around social media.

I stopped dealing with her after that, she denies telling the police anything. I have her profile on facebook blocked because she’s nuts, she’s crazy as hell. Today I get on facebook and I have this friend request, my facebook is private and I only have 37 friends whom I know all of them. I don’t add random people on facebook, I either know you or we have mutual friends in common.

I am looking at the name and the picture, SO is sitting next to me and he knows this girl through me. I’m like why is her son trying to be my friend and he asked how old her son is. I told him I think only sixteen or seventeen, I have met both her children and know their names. I know that she wants to get in touch with me, her fb is blocked, her boyfriend is still locked up and I think she wants to stay off of there since she was getting cursed at by his friends.

I screenshot the friend request, denied the request and wrote her a little personal message in public on my facebook page. I don’t care why she wants to talk to me, she’s insane..she needs to leave me alone. Then I am on the phone with BF and I am telling her what happened because BF know’s her and knows how fucking insane she is. BF knows everyone, it’s like walking with a fucking celebrity when we are together in public.

Anyway, I get a call and I sent them to voicemail…I have had the same phone number since 2011 so a lot of people have it but I don’t answer calls from numbers I don’t recognize. If its important, then leave a voicemail and I’ll call you back. Whoever it was didn’t leave a voicemail, it was a local number and I am pretty sure it was her.

I am positive she will read this post, so what is next? you going friend request me from your other son’s page or maybe your mom? We will never be friend’s again, grow up…take care of your children and stay the fuck away from me.

 

Inside look at something personal

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The last couple days have been really stressful and I have posted a couple of tweets that ranted to the way I have been feeling. I have a certain friend who thinks that she knows my man & my relationship better then me. I have spoken to her on several occasions and told her I didn’t like that and not to do that. I try to keep my personal life and struggles off of this blog and off of social media for the simple fact that what I am going through another bitch don’t need to know. However I’ve been stressed and I just need to vent.

The first thing is my SO has a drinking problem as far as he blacks out, doesn’t remember doing stuff and it effects our personal relationship, his family & friends. I think what happened last night and the results of that really made him realize that he can’t drink anymore. Some people can’t drink, I am one of those people. Like him I have a temper and when I drink, I don’t think and I will act fist and deal with the aftermath later. I’ve been asked why I don’t drink anymore, this is the reason why.

Now, this friend has made a couple of comments about how my man can handle liquor like she knows him better then I do. I feel like she’s trying to micro manage my relationship and I hate that shit. Anyone whose been around my SO when he was drunk on more then one occasion have told him they think he shouldn’t drink.

I am over this situation, and let me make myself perfectly clear…at this point I am super grateful that as much as I rant about how horrible this building is….everyone minds their own business in here. I am friendly with just about everyone on the floor I am on and have apologized to them.

I wanted to make a generalized post about this situation as I know people in my building visit my blog and my twitter.