Monthly Archives: January 2018

January Recap & Post Goals for February

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I started this month by planning out blog posts and wanting to post twice a week which worked for about two weeks and then I was lucky if I posted once a week. I started seeing a new doctor, going back to mental health services and meeting with my new care manager. That being said, I hate my new psychiatrist who feels I don’t have any of the things I was previously diagnosed with and my real problem is lack of sleep. He hasn’t put me on any meds besides a sleeping pill so I’m still having panic attacks, still having a hallucinations, still having depression. He has been a psychiatrist for forty years and I have been living in my body for thirty-four but I don’t know anything. It would have helped at my first appointment if he was more worried about my symptoms then why I can’t see my son.

I posted eight times in January, these are the posts I think you should check out:

http://jolene.thislove.nu/2018/01/23/seven-things-other-people-do-that-annoy-me/

http://jolene.thislove.nu/2018/01/08/why-i-blog-and-why-i-chose-the-name-mental-affliction/

http://jolene.thislove.nu/2018/01/05/five-things-i-am-doing-to-make-my-life-better-in-2018/

 

In February I hope to post twice a week, but some weeks I may post more or less depending on appointments and such. I have posts planned until March and I ordered another planner that I hope to dedicate to just blogging. I also plan on doing a couple of survey site reviews and product reviews in the coming months. If you are a new reader I hope to stay awhiile, if you are an old reader..glad you are still here.

Seven things other people do that annoy me

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I really don’t like to be around people in general and only really go out if I have an appointment or need something from the store. Honestly people in general get under my skin which is why I only really spend time with my SO and that’s about it, people lucky if I answer the phone for them.

Lying about dumb things or lying in general:

I don’t like when people lie to me, especially when they start drama or start a rumor and when caught in the lie they cry. I am grown and there are certain people who I know read my blog that lie about shit that don’t make sense. There is this “friend” that I have that lied about seeing one of my family members a couple of months ago. Who also started a rumor about me in the building we both lived in and blamed it on a couple of innocent people, basically started a ton of drama and I was ready to beat these two innocent people asses over some shit that came out of her mouth. When she was caught, she cried…that’s what people who when they get caught in lies. STOP LYING.

There is honestly no reason to lie about anything and it’s pointless to confront this bitch because she won’t own up to shit. To this day she still denies the drama she started over the summer. Matter fact she is still holding true to the lies she told on another situation that she wasn’t even apart of originally, a situation she inserted herself in to be relevant. I should have known she was wacked when I found out she know’s all these bitches from my past that I no longer associate with because they cause drama including “Crazy Girl”

Moving on….

Walking really slow:

I am tall so I walk faster then shorter people, my legs are longer. I really hate when people walk slow and then like are all over the sidewalk so I can’t pass. Some people have driving rage, I have walking rage.

Stopping out of nowhere in the middle of the aisle at the grocery store or mall:

When I’m walking behind someone in the store and they just stop out of nowhere in the middle of the walkway and don’t move over.

Walking in front of your very young children:

There is no reason ever that your two year old child is walking behind you…can’t tell you how many times I have seen this bullshit in Buffalo. I also can’t tell you how many times I have pulled a young child that wasn’t related to me out of the fucking street. If you do this..SMFH

Acting tough on social media aka being a “online gangster” or a “phone gangster”:

this doesn’t need examples

Treating me as if I am a grocery store and only calling/texting when you need something:

There are several people I know that text me lists of stuff they need from me and that’s the only time they text me.

Always talking about drama:

I know someone who only calls when they got drama going on, I hate that shit.

 

 

 

Top Three Favorite Blogs

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When I have free time and I’m not writing a blog, doing surveys, spending time on twitter or playing the sims, these are the sites I like to go on when I’m bored and why.

http://flyhighrocketship.net/

Her blog has a colorful design, it’s organized and she writes about interesting things. She responds to comments which I also like. When a blog owner takes the time to respond to a comment you feel like you’re connected.

http://anywhere-is.net/

She is one of the few blog owners that has been around as long as I have (since the late 90’s) that is the main reason I like her blog. Her blog is interesting, I like reading it.

https://realwaystoearnmoneyonline.com/

This blog is the only one I trust for work at home opportunities or ways to earn money online besides surveys. She has a biweekly newsletter so if you are interested subscribe to that.

 

This entry is really short, Monday’s should be longer. Check out the above sites.

Top Five Favorite Sims 4 Mods

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I love playing the sims four but the game gets boring sometimes, A lot of gamers who play the sims don’t like to play with mods or custom content. I play with a lot of mods and custom content, out of those mods I play with these are the top five I currently can’t play without and links to download if you’d like to try them too.

 

MC Command Center or MCCC:

You can download MCCC at: https://deaderpoolmc.tumblr.com/

You can do a lot of things with MCCC, I use it for story progression and when one of my sims is pregnant to tell how many babies and what gender they are.There is a lot more the mod does though.

Basmental Drug Mod:

You can download the drug mod at: http://basementalcc.com/

This mod add’s a lot of drugs in your game but the one I use the most is weed. It also adds the ability to become a drug dealer and an event to buy from dealer.

Extreme Violence Mod:

You can download this mod at: http://sims4studio.com/thread/7833/studio-drama *Note: you have to join the forum to download

This mod add’s a lot of things into gameplay, you can stab or shoot people. You can get sims info from your cellphone. Watch the trailer to see all the things you can do. I use this mod when I am bored, to be honest.

Realistic LifeSpan Mod:

You can download this mod at: http://modthesims.info/d/592832

This mod changes how long your sim spends at each lifestage, for the realistic flavor and the one I use is:

Realistic :
– baby : 28 days
– toddler : 84 days
– child : 224 days
– teen : 168 days
– young adult : 336 days
– adult : 980 days
– elder : 560 days

Risky WooHoo:

You can download this mod at::http://modthesims.info/d/602778 or you can get the woohoo add on with MCCC which does the same thing.

This mod has ten flavors, pick one and add it to your game. Those flavors are:

1% Chance
2% Chance
3% Chance
4% Chance
5% Chance
10% Chance
15% Chance
20% Chance
25% Chance
30% Chance

At this moment I am using 30% in my game. I use this mod for story progression where my sim is able bodied to get pregnant but I don’t want to use the try for a baby option.

These mods are all currently in my game but aren’t the only one’s I use. What mods can’t you play without? leave them in the comments below.

 

Three Favorite Authors

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Anyone who knows me knows that I spend most if not all of my free time reading. I don’t have a favorite book, I have many favorite books. What I do have is favorite authors but like many who read I can not narrow it down to just one author. Picking just three authors was hard enough for me.

 

Victoria Laurie: http://www.victorialaurie.com/

I discovered Victoria Laurie while looking on my local libraries overdrive account, and noticing that she had a series called Ghost Hunter and at that time the first four books were available so I checked them out. I was hooked from the very first book I read and I think I read those five books in about a weeks time. I ended up going to my city’s main branch and trying to request all her books and I got this look from one of the librarians like I was crazy. I read all the book’s in that series and noticing that she had another series..Psychic eye mysteries. I actually read almost the entire Ghost Hunters series before I read the first book in the Psychic eye series.

When I started the Psychic eye mystery series there were thirteen books out with number fourteen coming out that July, I started reading the series and I completed book thirteen in June of 2015, just in time for me to buy and read number fourteen. She is the first author I have ever pre-ordered a book with and that book was number fifteen in the psychic eye mystery series that came out this past July.

Her books bring so many emotions out in me, and she is the only author that can do that for me.

Janice Thompson: http://janiceathompson.com/

Janice Thompson has a number of books, book series and such. I have only read the weddings by bella, weddings by design and bella novella series’. I discovered this author by downloading the first book in the weddings by bella series on amazon kindle. I read that first book in 2011 I believe and then I got the actual other two out from the library at the time. I own all the books in the above series in kindle format and the first three of the weddings by bella series in actual book format.

I read these books when I am in the mood for some sweet romance, as none of her books have any sex scenes.

 

Liz Schulte: http://www.lizschulte.com/

I downloaded Easy Bake Coven as a freebie from amazon a couple years ago and that is how I got hooked on Liz Schulte’s writing. If you read or have read any of her books that feature the Aybss world she has a recommended reading order on her website here, So far I have only read in the Easy Bake Coven series up to Ollie, Ollie Hex ‘n Free. I do own others but am still trying to collect before I start reading again.

 

Those are my top three that I will always read before I read anyone else, if you like to read and are looking for someone new then check out one of the above authors or their websites.

 

 

Upcoming blog posts

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I got my planner & pens in the mail today and have decided to only blog two days a week; Mondays and Fridays for the reason being that it burns me out if I plan to blog more then that. I have posts planned out until the end of February starting tomorrow and on the last day of the month every month regardless of what day it falls on will be a blog post recap for that month. For the next three Friday’s posts ; January 12th, 19th & 26th will be three favorite’s posts, On the 29th I plan to post a seven things that people do to annoy me post.

For the Mondays blog posts they revolve around the sims 4, if you don’t play or aren’t interested in the game…then stay away on Mondays I guess. At least for the month of January. I hope that by planning my posts out two months in advance, I can keep myself motivated to blog and grow this one up like I did Nocturnal Dreams.

I want to try to do a couple of giveaway’s this year, possibly one that doesn’t have to do with the sims. For my readers who continue to come back and show support on twitter by sharing my blog post links..Thank you so much. I hope new readers will stick around and give me a chance.

Why I blog and Why I chose the name Mental Affliction

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I originally started blogging in 1998 when I was sixteen years old and a junior in high school, I had been dealing with depression and anxiety since middle school and up to that point I had used writing poetry as an escape. My dad worked for a company that built computers and later he co-owned a local internet provider so we have always had computers in our house, and we have had the internet since 1996. My dad had given me a book on HTML in 1997 and I taught myself the basics and started my own website, blogging by hand. this was before wordpress existed. 

I soon found that expressing myself online was therapy for me, I found people who were as honest and open as me and I made a lot of friends who also owned personal sites or blogs. Many of whom aren’t around anymore. I couldn’t be as open as I was online, at home. My family didn’t believe I had anything mentally wrong with me, I was constantly told that it was all in my head. I had friends but with them I liked to pretend I was normal and have fun with them. Online I could be myself.

I continued to blog until 2009 when my computer crashed and I stopped but only because I had to. In 2014 I bought myself a laptop and I missed owning a personal/blog site so I decided to open Nocturnal Dreams and was happy and hosted for two years until the domain I was hosted at expired and my site went down.

When I moved to thislove.nu I wanted a fresh start with a new name, I chose Mental Affliction. Affliction is a state of grief or suffering. Mental affliction is a state of suffering that is internal. I can not think of better name for this blog, I have been dealing with internal suffering (depression, anxiety, ect) for a long time, I have used unhealthy methods to cope and for now this blog is my outlet just as writing used to be.

I blog because this is my outlet, my place where I can be myself and not be judged.

 

Have to mention

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Please don’t spam my comments with the same comment on every post, if you wish for me to check your website out just mention it in a comment once or direct message it to me via twitter. I will check it out when I have the time, I promise. If you want to exchange links that is fine, you can DM me a msg on twitter or comment on one of my posts.

 

Thank you

Five things I am doing to make my life better in 2018

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I really don’t make new years resolutions instead I make goals and stick to them, This year I am sticking to these five and taking one day at a time.

  1. Buy a planner: I am looking at these three and deciding which one I want to buy. one , two , three . I am indecisive between the first & second one.

 

I have a lot of stuff to keep track of, appointments with different doctors offices being the number one thing. I’d like to start planning meals for the week and also planning out blog posts. Probably going to use it to keep track of which survey company owes me money and who I am doing product tests for. I wish to make my life less stressful and help me get organized.

 

 

  1. Focus on my heath: I need glasses (I think this is the reason I am dizzy and getting so many migraines), I need to get back into mental health services, I’m sick of being in physical pain, ect.

 

I hate going to the doctors but I need to get my heath in order, this year I am going to focus on doing that.

 

  1. Cut people out of my life: I am the queen of chances, I give second, third, fifth, ect chances to people who frankly don’t deserve them.

Some people need to go and not come back.

 

  1. Have a positive attitude

I think this is everything, complaining about things you can’t change is not getting anywhere.

 

  1. Take one day at a time

 

Everything is listed as number one for the simple reason they are all equally important to me.