So I’ve been trying to quit smoking but haven’t completely stopped yet. I smoked a lot today. I also think I’m getting sick, I woke up today with a sore throat and achy body. It’s probably bronchitis again.

I’ve been on YouTube a lot, yesterday and most of the day today. I’ve been watching a vlogger, Carins corner. I enjoy her videos a lot.

I’m also trying to do surveys again, I stopped doing them for awhile but I miss giving my opinion, and making extra cash.

I know my blog posts have been lacking, my laptop is broken. I have to type posts out on my tiny phone. I want to get back into planning out blog posts and blogging twice a week again.

I’ve been wanting and trying to quit smoking. I’ve been taking chantix again and praying that it helps me quit. I’m honestly sick of my whole life revolving around whether I have cigarettes or not. I’d save so much money. Plus I’m really close to the age when my dad passed from lung cancer.

My mental health has been taking hit, I’ve been cutting again and I’m so mad at myself for it. For those who know me, self harm is something I’ve been struggling with since I was a pre teen. Part of me wants to bring it up in therapy but I feel like my therapist is so judgmental. I miss my old therapist and it seems like since she left its all been misses and I can’t connect to anyone.

My physical health hasn’t been that great either. My allergies have been acting up and so has my arthritis. Some days I can barely move and I feel like no one understands.