I have been up all night, this is so normal for me and I can’t stand it. My SO is trying to control my coffee intake when coffee has never had any effect on me. My brain won’t shut off, that is the problem.

My doctor put me on the same sleeping pill and same dosage as she had me on back in twenty thirteen when I was seeing her. Afterwards my PCP was prescribing it and the major issue is…my body is used to it now. Medication is weird like that…what works for one won’t work for another and your body can get used to medication.

I have an appointment with her on Friday so I will let her know then, my doctor is pretty cool so I don’t think it will be a problem upping the dosage or trying a new med. I’m also stressed out, my court date is Tuesday.

I don’t have a lawyer because legal aid sucks..I called them back in October when I first appealed and they told me to call back when I got a court date. Then two weeks ago when social security set a court date, now they can’t help me because there is no time…uh make up your mind, for real.

So fuck it, it is what it is. I’ll have my doctor give me some paperwork stating my diagnoses and what medication she has me on and answer the questions the judge asks. It’s Wednesday and my court date is Tuesday, I know how I feel better then anyone. Hopefully it will be okay.

If worst comes to worst someone from target contacted me about some job that pays weekly plus commission via my indeed account. Social security can’t cut me off without notice so I will be able to pay my rent in April even if they do cut me off. I hope they don’t though.