Another night where I only got two hours of sleep, I’m still sick and I’m still not sure what I have but I’m hoping and praying that I kick this by Wednesday. I am binge Greys Anatomy seasons 16 through 18 on Netflix because I cancelled its beginning March 4th. I’m just going to watch season 19 on Hulu. I don’t know if anyone comes here anymore but I found my Blog Planner so I will start to plan entries out again.
So I think I have the flu, My stomach is bothering me….I threw up on the floor and all over my bed a couple days ago and this morning my throat is killing me, so that is fun. I hope I feel better by Wednesday when I get paid. I’m thinking about canceling my http://www.universalyums.com box. Idk, I pay for the super yum box and usually it’s great, but this month….blah. It’s usually packed with snacks, but not this month, I was very unimpressed and quite honest, much to my sisters delight, I have been getting more and more into makeup, I’m thinking about subscribing to a beauty box like Ipsy. Any Suggestions?
I can’t afford to get girl scout cookies this year but if you do, consider ordering from Troop 6000 in New York City ; https://www.girlscoutsnyc.org/en/discover/girl-scouting-nyc/troop-6000.html .
i’ve been going through my email and doing surveys, having coffee & breakfast with my sister and we have also been meeting up for dinner.
So I’ve been so dizzy since yesterday, I’ve also been super hungry and my sister thinks I’m pregnant, God I hope not. I mean if I was, I’d keep the baby but The father is just like my son’s father in personality. They are both Geminis, I am a Gemini and we clash. He can’t handle his liquor and he has put his hands on me.
I was super dizzy yesterday at my sisters, I was also in so much pain and she wants me to go to her orthopedic appointment on Tuesday, she’s scared they are going to tell her she needs to have surgery so I am going for moral support. I am also going to see if they take my insurance because I don’t like my current ortho and I am positive I have arthritis in other places then just my knees.
I went to bed at 11pm last night and woke up at four this morning, When I got up, I used the bathroom and almost fell asleep on the toilet four times and almost fell head first off the toilet three times. I need to go get this checked out.
As for this blog/website, I’m going to add some pages and stuff, so I can get more in depth about me, I’m going through the links to other pages today and maybe adding some new stuff off my list. I’m going to try to blog at least twice a week and eventually I will go back to reviewing survey sites like I was in the past.
I’ve been getting so many followers on social media, especially TikTok, I haven’t made a video in awhile but I do have videos on there. I go by Midnightjojo if you want to check me out. Besides being dizzy and in pain, I’m going to play coin master today and it’s quest day.
So Im not sure if I am manic but I only got three hours of sleep last night and besides being in pain, I feel okay. I did take a couple of my sleeping medication to see if I can take a little nap though, My whole body hurts and I’ve felt this way since Wednesday. I don’t know what I did, it just seems like I have arthritis in more places then my knees. I’m thinking about finding a new orthopedic, She has me on Meloxicam which is an anti-inflammatory, but she never gives me refills, ever. My sister is on a lower dose of the same med and she gets refills, I’m thinking about going where she goes or back to dent because I have to see a neurologist too.
I ended up canceling my therapist appointment and my injection last week, I had some kind of 24hr bug and cases are going back up here, my doctors office doesn’t want you to come in if you are sick. I had a doctors appointment that week but I was able to do that over the phone, and she ended up giving me a higher dose of my anti psychotic, so we will see if that helps with the mania. I have been on every med under the sun and the only one I refuse to take is Lithium, I had a roommate that was on it and she ended up in the hospital for four months because it made her really sick.
Last night, I had dinner at my sisters and her friend got me a pint of E&J Apple, we walked to the store and when we got back, I could tell that he was about to start shit with me so I left. I came home and didn’t go to sleep until Five this morning and then was up by Eight.
I have been downloading a lot of games, and reading about Serial killers and missing people on Wikipedia. I had brunch with my sister, just oatmeal and bacon. Then I told her that if I didn’t call her by 8pm to eat without me and I’d cook us dinner tomorrow. We share meals, a lot and take turns cooking.
I feel like I don’t have much to say these days, I can’t believe I’ve had this blog since 2017. I’m going to start planning out blogs again when I find my planner and maybe get back into doing giveaways.
So I know I’ve been complaining about this the last couple of posts, but it doesn’t say FREEBIE ZONE on my forehead. I have been talking to someone new for about two weeks and in that time he has asked me to borrow Ten dollars, which I told him no and today he asked me to order him a sub. Like he’s the one with a job and he lives with his mom. Like, we aren’t in a relationship and even if we were, I want someone to buy me stuff not me take care of them. He’s also hitting my sister up for joints when it’s not her job to support his habits either.
My latest Ex, keeps coming to my door saying he wants to talk, but as far as I am concerned, we don’t have anything to talk about. He slapped me and I’m not forgiving him for that, we will not be getting back together. I am not putting up with abuse anymore, besides our relationship was toxic as hell anyways.
I am on a dating app and getting messages from both men and women, I am bisexual, I don’t think I’ve mentioned on here. I am not looking to rush into anything serious right now because I am keeping my options open.
I have been getting a lot of follows on Instagram lately, I don’t know if it’s coming from here or the dating app that I have insta connected to. I have an appointment with my new therapist tomorrow and I’m trying to decide what I want to tell her and how much I want to vent.
So I’ve moved into a new apartment in August, it’s a lot bigger then my old apartment although it is also a studio. A month after I moved I’m they renovated my apartment and put me up in a hotel for three weeks as well as gave me money for transportation and food. The new renovations look really good, they are working on the last few apartments on every floor now (there are 12 floors, I’m on 6). They are also renovatioing the hallways too.
I’ve been dealing with a lot, I’m struggling with some stuff mentally and it’s been really hard to concentrate lately. I signed up for a couple of interesting courses through Coursera and it’s been helping keep my mind off things. I am keeping my mental health appointments through zoom although the office I go to tried to force me to come in person. My therapist appointments are via zoom so I didn’t understand why my psychiatrist appointments couldn’t be.
I contacted my case manager and had her advocate for me, and now I have all zoom appointments except for my injection which is in person. My mom and I are going out to dinner once a month again and we will probably go next week. We went to Applebee’s last month and I updated her on everything. I don’t remember if I blogged about why I moved so I’ll recap.
I got in altercation with some neighbors in my old building why I was off my meds and I was basically sent to the hospital. I stayed for two weeks before I was released. A couple of weeks after I got out, two neighbors were fighting in the hallway and decided it would be a great idea to try to kick my door in. I called the cops several times and they said they couldn’t do anything even though one of the times they caught the person in action.
The next day I packed a bag and went to Ds mom’s house where I basically lived for 8 months until I found this apartment. The rent is higher here but I can manage. A month after I moved in, D’s mom got new furniture and gave me her old set (a sectional, a couch and a love seat), I wouldn’t been able to fit all of it into my old apartment.
I had to do a recovery on my laptop to fix the issue that I couldn’t play the sims. I can play now. Im so sorry I haven’t been blogging more often. I’ll probably blog once a week from now on.
I got into a fight with my SIL last week in which I basically told her to get the fuck out of my house, she brought the drama in to my drama free zone and I didn’t like that so I told her she had to go.
The sims seasons just came out and I want it bad, on Payday after I pay my bills it’s the first thing I am going to buy. Im taking out my mods and cc and going to play with very little cc and zero mods for awhile.
I haven’t felt like blogging or really being on the computer. its hot and its been miserable so I;ve been sleeping a lot to try and stay cool. Hope everyone understands,
I have been dealing with a respiratory infection for the past two weeks which has made it extremely difficult for me to be on the computer for long periods of time doing anything more then checking email. I have been sleeping a lot, doing a lot of breathing treatments and binge watching tv shows, movies and reading.
The up and down weather and all the rain has also left me in a lot of pain, my knees have been bothering me something fierce. I can make promises about blogging more but honestly I never know what I will be doing or what will come up so I won’t bother. If you subscribe to updates via email, you will get my entries in your email..otherwise keep checking my social media, Links get shared every time I post.
Now that it is warmer outside I want to get outside and do some walking, I gained a bit of weight over the winter and i’m not happy with myself. It’s more painful the heavier I am on my knees and harder for me to breathe. I also want to quit smoking and be smoke free by August.
I have been up all night, this is so normal for me and I can’t stand it. My SO is trying to control my coffee intake when coffee has never had any effect on me. My brain won’t shut off, that is the problem.
My doctor put me on the same sleeping pill and same dosage as she had me on back in twenty thirteen when I was seeing her. Afterwards my PCP was prescribing it and the major issue is…my body is used to it now. Medication is weird like that…what works for one won’t work for another and your body can get used to medication.
I have an appointment with her on Friday so I will let her know then, my doctor is pretty cool so I don’t think it will be a problem upping the dosage or trying a new med. I’m also stressed out, my court date is Tuesday.
I don’t have a lawyer because legal aid sucks..I called them back in October when I first appealed and they told me to call back when I got a court date. Then two weeks ago when social security set a court date, now they can’t help me because there is no time…uh make up your mind, for real.
So fuck it, it is what it is. I’ll have my doctor give me some paperwork stating my diagnoses and what medication she has me on and answer the questions the judge asks. It’s Wednesday and my court date is Tuesday, I know how I feel better then anyone. Hopefully it will be okay.
If worst comes to worst someone from target contacted me about some job that pays weekly plus commission via my indeed account. Social security can’t cut me off without notice so I will be able to pay my rent in April even if they do cut me off. I hope they don’t though.
I bought a used computer last week which got here Friday, I was going to use it for parts to fix mine but the screen on this one is broken too. I am able to use it though and I got it for eighty dollars so…
I am trying to stay on top of my email, I may have to do a mass delete of my personal one. SO bought me a kindle fire a couple weeks ago, I have the seven so I have been doing a lot of reading and playing Sims Mobile which I like way better then Freeplay. I was able to install the sims 4 on this laptop and I bought the Laundry stuff pack but I haven’t really played yet.
I have been on twittter and on a couple of groups on facebook.