Category Archives: Health

Bored

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Date: January 24th, 2026

Time: 10:50 am

Eating/Drinking: water

Watching: Catfish

I’m bored, I finally made it downtown to pick up my food stamp card on Thursday but now I don’t have any water and I know the landlord is not going to come until Monday. I text him but I haven’t gotten an answer. I’m watching catfish and drinking water which I got before it stopped working. I had a cup of coffee this morning, thanks to Regina who has my coffee pot and my coffee.

I’m still not feeling well, my stomach hurts but I had a friend over yesterday. We just chilled for an hour.

Staying home again

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I was supposed to go downtown today but social services it’s closed because of the weather so once again I’m waiting for the mail hoping that my food stamp card is in there. I’m still not feeling well my stomach is bothering me and my head hurts and I’m still having trouble breathing.

Sick yet again

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I think I have bronchitis, I’ve just been laying low and trying to get better by myself. I went with a friend on Friday to spend the night at his friend’s house with a promise for a ride home. Then on Saturday I’m woken up and told we have to leave and I’m thinking that I’m going to get a ride home. Unfortunately I am told I have to walk several miles to get home, luckily I was able to secure a ride with somebody that I asked if they would please give me a ride home. I did get home and I am never going anywhere with him again because this is the second time that he has tried them to make me walk from the west side to the east side. I have not heard from him since.

I have to go downtown to social services on Tuesday to figure out this back rent situation and to get a temporary food stamp card. I have been craving a turkey sub and a Pepsi for the last couple days. I haven’t been feeling great and I’ve been having trouble breathing. I have to call my case manager for housing on Tuesday to see if she has had any luck finding me a new location for me to live.

I’ve been listening to the crime junkie podcast even though I am years behind on Spotify. I have also been playing coin master. I’m going to try to keep writing blog post periodically and hopefully keep this blog updated.

It snowed

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I’m sitting here waiting for ACT to deliver my medicine and possibly give me my injection and it snowed this morning. I’m bored and I’m trying to find ways to entertain myself.

I promised a entry every day, so here is day two. I have no plans for the day and I really want some coffee but can’t get any. 😔

What’s been new

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So I was homeless for 8 months which I stayed at a shelter twice and couch hopped mostly, then I got linked up with RSI who found me this 2 bedroom apartment that I have been living in since March. I found a roommate which has been helping me with the rent and food and I’m still linked with ACT which is for my mental health.

I am still single but I have male friends, I haven’t been posting on social media lately. I lost everything when I became homeless and now only have furniture because of RSI and clothes because of my mom. I lost a ton of weight and my clothes are mostly too big.

I’m probably not going to do anything for the holidays, they cut food stamps in new York State because of the government shut down. My health has been okay but my asthma has put me in the ER four times in the last six months.

I’m using my friends wifi and I can’t play any games, watch movies or go on TikTok cause she gets pissed so I guess I’ll just try to blog every day and try to revamp my website via my phone. I still don’t have a laptop since mine was stolen by my ex in October of 2023.

I mostly sit in the apartment bored and try to fill my day up with reading and writing. I have writers block and haven’t written anything in a long time. My phone is off and has been off since July. I’m going to turn it back on in January I believe.

Nothing really has been going on the last couple of months, I’m going to start blogging a couple of times a week to keep y’all updated.

IDK What To Do Anymore

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Honestly I don’t know what to do anymore, my dude and I have been fighting every day, it’s always about dumb shit, it starts as soon as I wake up and doesn’t end until I go to bed. We were fighting really bad yesterday and I ended up cutting. I struggle with self harm and have been since I was 11 years old. I even asked my sister if I could spend a couple of nights at her house and at first she told me no. I was like WTF, and I think she’s hooking up with old dude again and thats why she doesn’t want me there.I mean honestly I’d let her stay with me so I don’t know why she wouldn’t do the same. Then she was like yeah but you can’t live with me again. I was like no one said anything about living with you, I just wants to stay a couple nights thats it.

Then some dude that lives in the apartment above mine threatened me over the phone this morning, He also threanted stacey a couple months ago. He tells females he will beat their ass but won’t tell a man that.

I’m a dumbass bitch, apparently

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So I am hiding out at my sisters house, I’m taking a vacation here because my current ex won’t come here. On Wednesday, he held me in my apartment while he was drunk. He shoved me in my apartment when I was opening my door and then preceded to tell me that I’m a dumbass bitch and hes got all these bitches and I’m ugly and he would never commit to me and just all this stuff and all I wanted was for him to leave and leave me alone. He hit me on my back a couple of times which I have bruises from and he slapped me twice. Then finally he left and I laid in my bed and tried to sleep but my PTSD was fucking with me because I was having flashbacks of my ex ex choking me and trying to kill me so I packed a bag and came downstairs to my sisters apartment because he hates her and won’t come here. He kept saying that he Loves me but bullshit, if you loved me you wouldn’t hit me and cheat on me. I’ve been at my sisters since and we ran into him later and he acted like he didn’t break my heart.

I wish I would have listened to my sister

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My sister broke her right ankle on the 3rd walking when her legs gave out on her and I was with her when she got the actual cast put on it on the 10th. On the 12th, I’m minding my own business coming out of my bathroom and my legs gave out on me in the same way hers did when she broke her ankle. Went to the orthopedic on the 13th to find out I broke my foot on the same leg she broke her ankle. Ready for the funny part?

When the doctor the options of a walking cast or a boot and my sister is behind him pointing to her cast and shaking her head no, I choose the cast and I can’t wait to get out of this thing. I would have been able to shower, I want to shower. It’s heavy as hell, I go to the orthopedic podiatrist a week from Tuesday, I don’t even want to wait that long.

I go for a walker on Monday, even though I am perfectly capable of walking on it I haven’t tried outside and Ill have to put a bag on it so it doesn’t get wet. Never ever ever getting a cast again if they offer the boot.

I have a sectional in my apartment that I can’t sit on because I can’t get up from it. I am so over this cast. We should probably play the lottery because what are the odds of us to both have casts the the same leg.

Just me being me aka I’m so annoyed and I need to get this out.

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So, My sister is the type of person that anyone verbalizing their feelings to her gets her on the defenisive immediately and me having a ton of mental health issues, don’t know how to emotionally deal with that on a daily basis. So I, being me, tend to bottle things up and her being, her doesn’t get that so when I have had enough aka reached my breaking point and it all spills out she just gets defensive and starts asking me whats wrong like she didn’t do anything to make me mad. Now that you have an understanding of this, here we go.

So my sister gave me for Christmas one year a reuseble fliter for my coffee machine and she had one herself and all was good. Then she moved and it didn’t make it to her apartment so now she no longer has one and instead of buying another reusable fliter she bought coffee fliters and is now out of them. Then last week she broke her ankle and can’t go anywhere because she’s in a cast that can’t get wet, and we are taking public transportation and it’s winter so there’s snow.

So we are now sharing mine and I had instant coffee but she wanted that, now she doesn’t understand that if she has both the instant coffee and my fliter, I can not make coffee at my home. And shes being defensive towards me because I want me fliter. and I woke up in arthrits hell and my legs may or may not have given out about four or five times today and it’s not all about the fliter at this point.

She wants me to do her laundry, when she can do her own laundry because it’s inside the building and she’s in a walking cast and has a boot and shes basically throwing in my face that I should just yes her to death because her ankle is broken. oh and I came over to share my fliter and to see if she needed anything and she wants me to clean her house and next week she wants me to stop at four different stores because she can’t and while I didn’t break my ankle it’s like she forgets I’m in pain and my legs give out on me and I need to clean my own house and do my own laundry and she has other people she can call and I’m so stressed and I basically just knocked on her door and took my fliter while also yelling she couldn’t have the fliter and the instant coffee. Then I told her to do her own laundry because I was in pain.

Can you tell I’m at my breaking point? also if things weren’t bad enough I can’t update my site at the moment and I can’t go see Scream six because my sister can’t go with me and I don[t want to go by myself.”

Bullshit. A bunch of Bullshit

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So Things have been going up and all the way down with the current guy I’m dating and honestly after the last couple of days…I’m done. So about a week ago he was here about seventeen hours because I have wifi and he doesn’t. I left him in my apartment a couple of times because I thought I could trust him and while I did have a twisted tea while he was here, I wasn’t close to wasted. I’m a lightweight but not that much of one.

Anyways a few days ago, I look under my sink in my kitchen where I had a ton of cleaning products as I was getting ready to clean, some of them weren’t even open to find them all gone. So noting that I go looking for other things that I bought but haven’t used yet like four packs of Tops Papers and a box of batteries and they were missing too. Knowing who took them I call him and he sends me to voicemail so I curse him out on his VM.

Basically he shows up to my door yesterday yelling at me that I had been drunk and told him that he could take whatever he wanted. That never happened, I’m so pissed because now things I didn’t think I had to buy in March, I now have to buy. On top of that I’m sick and I feel like shit and it’s a blow to find out that someone I trusted it, had stolen from me.

He also accused me of giving him an STD and that he knows that my ex boyfriend who I haven’t seen since April had been in my apartment last Christmas. First of all, He’s banned from my building and second of all, we had a driving ban over Christmas weekend and the next week because we got blasted with snow, and the buses weren’t running plus it was like -20 outside. I spent Christmas with my sister.

Much to my sisters delight, I’ve been wearing more makeup and she’s been doing my eye makeup, while I like how eyeliner looks my hands shake too bad to do it to myself so my sister does it for me. After he left last night, I had a frightening dream about my ex actually being in my building over Christmas weekend and said I should have looked on the ground outside my window (I’m on the sixth floor) but in reality he’d be arrested if he was in the building.

I did get a text from him, yesterday asking if I still had his xbox login, guess he bought a new one after he sold the one I bought him, so I text the info to him and that was the end of the convo. My current is an idiot, then later today I took a nap and had a very weird dream about my current doing my make up and I was all pink, like it was horrible.

Overall I’m done, between him stealing from me and then him blaming it on me, I’m done. I’m not feeling well, my throat is killing me and I’ve lost my voice. I also think I have a UTI so I’m going to urgent care on Monday. I’m on a dating app and have been taking it on and off my phone for weeks now but now it’s staying on there and I’ve giving my current the kick out of my life.