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Bored

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Date: January 24th, 2026

Time: 10:50 am

Eating/Drinking: water

Watching: Catfish

I’m bored, I finally made it downtown to pick up my food stamp card on Thursday but now I don’t have any water and I know the landlord is not going to come until Monday. I text him but I haven’t gotten an answer. I’m watching catfish and drinking water which I got before it stopped working. I had a cup of coffee this morning, thanks to Regina who has my coffee pot and my coffee.

I’m still not feeling well, my stomach hurts but I had a friend over yesterday. We just chilled for an hour.

Sick yet again

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I think I have bronchitis, I’ve just been laying low and trying to get better by myself. I went with a friend on Friday to spend the night at his friend’s house with a promise for a ride home. Then on Saturday I’m woken up and told we have to leave and I’m thinking that I’m going to get a ride home. Unfortunately I am told I have to walk several miles to get home, luckily I was able to secure a ride with somebody that I asked if they would please give me a ride home. I did get home and I am never going anywhere with him again because this is the second time that he has tried them to make me walk from the west side to the east side. I have not heard from him since.

I have to go downtown to social services on Tuesday to figure out this back rent situation and to get a temporary food stamp card. I have been craving a turkey sub and a Pepsi for the last couple days. I haven’t been feeling great and I’ve been having trouble breathing. I have to call my case manager for housing on Tuesday to see if she has had any luck finding me a new location for me to live.

I’ve been listening to the crime junkie podcast even though I am years behind on Spotify. I have also been playing coin master. I’m going to try to keep writing blog post periodically and hopefully keep this blog updated.

I’m sick

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I don’t know how I got sick but hopefully it’s just a cold and not something that will land me in the emergency room. I haven’t really done anything that last week worth talking about. The gas station down the street reopened last week so I went to get a soda and a lighter. Been spending a lot of time on fandom and fun joint forum.

It snowed

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I’m sitting here waiting for ACT to deliver my medicine and possibly give me my injection and it snowed this morning. I’m bored and I’m trying to find ways to entertain myself.

I promised a entry every day, so here is day two. I have no plans for the day and I really want some coffee but can’t get any. 😔

A lot of shit been going on

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So I have been dealing with a lot of drama but what else is new, I almost had to cut Stacey off completely. So I became her payee through social security last summer and all was good until two months ago when she didn’t pay any of her bills but did pay her rent but then last month she didn’t pay her rent. She told me she paid her rent and told the office that her son had a family emergency. Then about two weeks into the month she had a conversation in front of me where the person was like “So what, Did you tell the office when you didn’t pay rent?” and I was like “Wait what? you paid the rent right, you told me you paid the rent” and she just looked down. There were a couple other reasons but I had a couple talks with her last week and then last Tuesday, she had a get together at her house and my vape disappeared. So I ended up going back to her house and taking hers, then I called her and said since mine went missing she wasn’t getting hers back.

I’m trying to quit smoking so I needed my vape and she is still buying cigarettes and I haven’t been to the reservation in three months. So it came to a head and Wednesday morning I ended up calling her and telling her that I was done and I blocked her. Then I called Social Security and told them that I no longer wanted to be her payee, when they asked why, instead of telling them the real deal, I said we had a falling out. Then that night me and my new dude went to dinner with my mom where I told her what was going on with Stacey and both of them said I should give her another chance.

On Friday I ended up unblocking her and then slept through Saturday all day and then Sunday she called to let me know she picked up my meds. I went to get my meds and talked to her and she asked about the Vape, I said nah you aren’t getting it back. I got paid today and bought a pack of newports and called her and said if you want one, you gotta come to the store and she did. I’ve been blacking out a lot and I started to get that feeling at the store and wanted someone there in case I did. I told her I called about not being her payee and she said that her doctor would sign off on being her own payee and if they ask would I say that I felt like she could handle her own money? I said yes but real talk I think she gonna have another payee eventually and I already told her not to ask me and if she lost her apartment fucking around not paying her rent which against her protests shes paying double rent this month that she couldn’t come stay with me.

She’s got habits that shes going to lose everything including her family if she keeps them up. She’s a good friend in some ways but she doesn’t understand the difference between me being my own payee and not pay my own rent it falls on just me but when she has me as a payee and don’t pay her rent she could have me in jail because they gonna think I am stealing her money and she wasn’t grasping it and I got so fed up. We good now but on certain shit I can’t trust her on.

As for me, I have been doing good. Finally got rid of fwb and moved on, he randomly pops up every now and then and I see him all the time but there is nothing there and there is nothing after what he did to make me not hate him. Now another guy I had relations with who Stacey also did is back and she paid for him to have relations with her, I don’t pay for sex so while he was asking me for money back then he was dealing with me. It wasn’t happening. So that it for that, I am good with who I am with. Way better then all my exs put together. Ended up having to block my ex that used to get drunk and beat on me, he knows I am with someone and called at like two am so I blocked him right away.

Just me being me aka I’m so annoyed and I need to get this out.

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So, My sister is the type of person that anyone verbalizing their feelings to her gets her on the defenisive immediately and me having a ton of mental health issues, don’t know how to emotionally deal with that on a daily basis. So I, being me, tend to bottle things up and her being, her doesn’t get that so when I have had enough aka reached my breaking point and it all spills out she just gets defensive and starts asking me whats wrong like she didn’t do anything to make me mad. Now that you have an understanding of this, here we go.

So my sister gave me for Christmas one year a reuseble fliter for my coffee machine and she had one herself and all was good. Then she moved and it didn’t make it to her apartment so now she no longer has one and instead of buying another reusable fliter she bought coffee fliters and is now out of them. Then last week she broke her ankle and can’t go anywhere because she’s in a cast that can’t get wet, and we are taking public transportation and it’s winter so there’s snow.

So we are now sharing mine and I had instant coffee but she wanted that, now she doesn’t understand that if she has both the instant coffee and my fliter, I can not make coffee at my home. And shes being defensive towards me because I want me fliter. and I woke up in arthrits hell and my legs may or may not have given out about four or five times today and it’s not all about the fliter at this point.

She wants me to do her laundry, when she can do her own laundry because it’s inside the building and she’s in a walking cast and has a boot and shes basically throwing in my face that I should just yes her to death because her ankle is broken. oh and I came over to share my fliter and to see if she needed anything and she wants me to clean her house and next week she wants me to stop at four different stores because she can’t and while I didn’t break my ankle it’s like she forgets I’m in pain and my legs give out on me and I need to clean my own house and do my own laundry and she has other people she can call and I’m so stressed and I basically just knocked on her door and took my fliter while also yelling she couldn’t have the fliter and the instant coffee. Then I told her to do her own laundry because I was in pain.

Can you tell I’m at my breaking point? also if things weren’t bad enough I can’t update my site at the moment and I can’t go see Scream six because my sister can’t go with me and I don[t want to go by myself.”

Bullshit. A bunch of Bullshit

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So Things have been going up and all the way down with the current guy I’m dating and honestly after the last couple of days…I’m done. So about a week ago he was here about seventeen hours because I have wifi and he doesn’t. I left him in my apartment a couple of times because I thought I could trust him and while I did have a twisted tea while he was here, I wasn’t close to wasted. I’m a lightweight but not that much of one.

Anyways a few days ago, I look under my sink in my kitchen where I had a ton of cleaning products as I was getting ready to clean, some of them weren’t even open to find them all gone. So noting that I go looking for other things that I bought but haven’t used yet like four packs of Tops Papers and a box of batteries and they were missing too. Knowing who took them I call him and he sends me to voicemail so I curse him out on his VM.

Basically he shows up to my door yesterday yelling at me that I had been drunk and told him that he could take whatever he wanted. That never happened, I’m so pissed because now things I didn’t think I had to buy in March, I now have to buy. On top of that I’m sick and I feel like shit and it’s a blow to find out that someone I trusted it, had stolen from me.

He also accused me of giving him an STD and that he knows that my ex boyfriend who I haven’t seen since April had been in my apartment last Christmas. First of all, He’s banned from my building and second of all, we had a driving ban over Christmas weekend and the next week because we got blasted with snow, and the buses weren’t running plus it was like -20 outside. I spent Christmas with my sister.

Much to my sisters delight, I’ve been wearing more makeup and she’s been doing my eye makeup, while I like how eyeliner looks my hands shake too bad to do it to myself so my sister does it for me. After he left last night, I had a frightening dream about my ex actually being in my building over Christmas weekend and said I should have looked on the ground outside my window (I’m on the sixth floor) but in reality he’d be arrested if he was in the building.

I did get a text from him, yesterday asking if I still had his xbox login, guess he bought a new one after he sold the one I bought him, so I text the info to him and that was the end of the convo. My current is an idiot, then later today I took a nap and had a very weird dream about my current doing my make up and I was all pink, like it was horrible.

Overall I’m done, between him stealing from me and then him blaming it on me, I’m done. I’m not feeling well, my throat is killing me and I’ve lost my voice. I also think I have a UTI so I’m going to urgent care on Monday. I’m on a dating app and have been taking it on and off my phone for weeks now but now it’s staying on there and I’ve giving my current the kick out of my life.

Health Issues and Blog updates

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So I’ve been so dizzy since yesterday, I’ve also been super hungry and my sister thinks I’m pregnant, God I hope not. I mean if I was, I’d keep the baby but The father is just like my son’s father in personality. They are both Geminis, I am a Gemini and we clash. He can’t handle his liquor and he has put his hands on me.

I was super dizzy yesterday at my sisters, I was also in so much pain and she wants me to go to her orthopedic appointment on Tuesday, she’s scared they are going to tell her she needs to have surgery so I am going for moral support. I am also going to see if they take my insurance because I don’t like my current ortho and I am positive I have arthritis in other places then just my knees.

I went to bed at 11pm last night and woke up at four this morning, When I got up, I used the bathroom and almost fell asleep on the toilet four times and almost fell head first off the toilet three times. I need to go get this checked out.

As for this blog/website, I’m going to add some pages and stuff, so I can get more in depth about me, I’m going through the links to other pages today and maybe adding some new stuff off my list. I’m going to try to blog at least twice a week and eventually I will go back to reviewing survey sites like I was in the past.

I’ve been getting so many followers on social media, especially TikTok, I haven’t made a video in awhile but I do have videos on there. I go by Midnightjojo if you want to check me out. Besides being dizzy and in pain, I’m going to play coin master today and it’s quest day.

What I want……

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So I know I’ve been complaining about this the last couple of posts, but it doesn’t say FREEBIE ZONE on my forehead. I have been talking to someone new for about two weeks and in that time he has asked me to borrow Ten dollars, which I told him no and today he asked me to order him a sub. Like he’s the one with a job and he lives with his mom. Like, we aren’t in a relationship and even if we were, I want someone to buy me stuff not me take care of them. He’s also hitting my sister up for joints when it’s not her job to support his habits either.

My latest Ex, keeps coming to my door saying he wants to talk, but as far as I am concerned, we don’t have anything to talk about. He slapped me and I’m not forgiving him for that, we will not be getting back together. I am not putting up with abuse anymore, besides our relationship was toxic as hell anyways.

I am on a dating app and getting messages from both men and women, I am bisexual, I don’t think I’ve mentioned on here. I am not looking to rush into anything serious right now because I am keeping my options open.

I have been getting a lot of follows on Instagram lately, I don’t know if it’s coming from here or the dating app that I have insta connected to. I have an appointment with my new therapist tomorrow and I’m trying to decide what I want to tell her and how much I want to vent.

Sunday, Fucking Sucked

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I should have just stayed in the house because I got slapped by FWB/My ex boyfriend and I got yelled at by my sisters and my mutual friend aka bitch ass motherfucker. So I went to her apartment this morning because she had my pepsi and I wanted it and I told her I would make pancakes and eggs for the two of us and she says our mutual friend is there. I go down there and he lets me in then asks if I want a cup of coffee, I said yeah and he makes me one. An hour or two pass and I don’t remember why I was in the kitchen, I think I was getting pepsi for myself or something, so he threw his phone on the island, his phone hit a creamer container which knocked one of my sister’s glasses off the island, it hit the floor and broke.

So I he’s just sitting there, didn’t say sorry so I ask him if he wants me to grab the broom and dustpan so he can clean it up and he’s like “Bitch, why don’t you clean it” and I said “I didn’t fucking break it”. After this it goes downhill pretty fast, so I threw the broom on the ground and basically refuse to did it because he broke it. Mind you in the entry I wrote on Friday, this same thing happened last Wednesday with some corn that he yelled at me to clean up and he threatened me then and I gave him a second chance but after the fucked up shit he did yesterday, I’m done with him and so is my sister.

So I end up cleaning the glass up and end up cutting my finger in the process, then I get a call from the second bitch ass motherfucker. He wants me to meet him at my apartment so I can give him the login I was using on his laptop so he can factory reset it. I run up the stairs and ended up waiting for him and when he did finally show up, he didn’t have the laptop.

So I’m like I have shit to do today, I didn’t but I didn’t want to be around him, then he did the one thing that guaranteed II would never have anything else to do with him. He smacked me in my face, told me I was a lair when mind you, Last week when he spent the night, he called out not one but two bitches names in his sleep. He claimed one was a cat, but that’s fucking B.S because who is dreaming about cats. I mean he has a cat but neither of the names he called out are the name of his cat.

He wouldn’t leave and I could feel the tears coming because I’m not going to lie, I love him. But I let my son’s father put his hands on me, I tolerated my ex treating me like a punching bag when he got drunk, He slept with girls, every chance he got and he was always accusing me of sleeping with everyone. It’s always the one that guilty that will accuse the other person.

That’s this bitch ass mother who slapped me, then tells me I deserved it. So he finally leaves but when I’m going to leave to go back to my sisters, here he comes down the hall and tells me he’s sorry for slapping me. I said “Fuck you’re sorry” and went to my sisters. We live one floor a away from each other and one apartment over.

So I get there and as soon as I sat down, I told my sister that he slapped me then I start crying, I’m in no mood to make eggs and waffles now. My sister gets up to do it, and he starts yelling at me and I’m just crying because I got slapped by my supposed boyfriend and then I come to my sisters and I’m getting verbally attacked for I don’t know what reason.

He says sit down to her and then calls me lazy and that I never cook, when I cooked for them both Friday and Saturday, on top of that I bought him a slice of pizza at the slice shop on Friday. Then he rolls up to me and pulls out a steak knife, that was my sisters and tells me he’s going to stab me which I brush off. At this point my sister comes over, grabs the handles of his chair and say’s he has to get out of her house.

He tells her to “Shut the fuck up” and she repeats for him to leave, then he says fuck you! to both of us. Then he tells us that he’s not interested in hearing about my sex life which I don’t talk about with anyone, so I don’t know what the fuck he’s talking about.

He finally leaves and I tell my sister I think we should hit the store tomorrow and stay in tonight. We ate dinner then the bell rings and he’s yelling through the door to open the door because he left his phone and keys. Oh an one boot, he didn’t leave anything. He had both boots on, his keys were around his neck and his phone was in this man purse, I saw him put it in there before he left. So we just ignore him at first,, then his aunt comes and wants to know what’s going on so my sister cracks the door to talk to her and here he comes trying to force his way into the apartment. I told his aunt, one of the first people I met when I moved it that he threatened to stab me and I was done with him. Meanwhile my sister and I are trying to close the door and he’s calling me a bitch, and why is my sister taking my side over his.

My sister is not blood related but she’s been my ride or die for nine years and she’s known him for two months, He thinks because they drink together, she’d choose him over me. Then not only is he ringing the doorbell, he’s now knocking on the door so hard and yelling through the door that ne needs his keys and his phone and his missing boot, but not only that he claims he left his boxers at her house too. He didn’t leave anything, he just wanted to start more trouble.

He claims he’s locked out and he doesn’t have twenty dollars for a lock out, a lock out is fifteen but when he was pounding on her door he said he would give us fifty a piece if we would let him in and she told him she would call the office and leave a msg for maintenance to let him in his apt and he didn’t leave anything at her apartment, actually he was trying to take a bag full of bubble wrap she was saving in case she or I moved again. He also took about thirty of my Tylenol arthritis meds without my permission and left me three pills and a half of one and he took my sister’s stamps without permission too. I’m so over this bullshit.

He wouldn’t stop so eventually we called the police, neither of us wanted too because we don’t like the police but he wouldn’t stop. She had a little flower wreath thing hanging on her door and when we had to go down to the lobby to get her package, we noticed he tore it apart, there were branches or whatever it was made from were all on the ground in front of her door. So she called 911 at 8:30pm and they didn’t show until almost 10pm. They said if he came back call 911 again and he would be arrested (which he did but he was just ringing her bell and we turned the volume up on the TV and ignored him and eventually he left).

I was going to stay the night at her apartment but I asked her if she cared if I came upstairs because I was so anxious and I wanted to write this on here and I told her that I would probably make him in the Sims and torture him in the game, him and the other one. I told her if he came back to call the police and I would call her when I got home. Before I left we both blocked and deleted his number in our phones, before all this drama I gave him the login to my Hulu account and I ended up changing it and logging everyone out.

Tomorrow me and her are going down to the management office and letting them know what happened. Honestly I’m so tempted to get an order of protection against him, this is the second time this week, he pulled a knife on me and threatened to stab me.

In the middle of all this BS, the guy who slapped me called my phone and the first words out of his mouth were “Hey Bitch, are you still mad at me?” and then he says he’s going to call me a Bitch because according to him I deserve it. So yeah, It’s a wrap for him as well. I don’t need this crap.

This is exactly why I didn’t delete Badoo off my phone, because He was back and forth with me and I’m too old for that shit too. Always some fucking drama in my life.