Update on my life

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So I’ve moved into a new apartment in August, it’s a lot bigger then my old apartment although it is also a studio. A month after I moved I’m they renovated my apartment and put me up in a hotel for three weeks as well as gave me money for transportation and food. The new renovations look really good, they are working on the last few apartments on every floor now (there are 12 floors, I’m on 6). They are also renovatioing the hallways too.

I’ve been dealing with a lot, I’m struggling with some stuff mentally and it’s been really hard to concentrate lately. I signed up for a couple of interesting courses through Coursera and it’s been helping keep my mind off things. I am keeping my mental health appointments through zoom although the office I go to tried to force me to come in person. My therapist appointments are via zoom so I didn’t understand why my psychiatrist appointments couldn’t be.

I contacted my case manager and had her advocate for me, and now I have all zoom appointments except for my injection which is in person. My mom and I are going out to dinner once a month again and we will probably go next week. We went to Applebee’s last month and I updated her on everything. I don’t remember if I blogged about why I moved so I’ll recap.

I got in altercation with some neighbors in my old building why I was off my meds and I was basically sent to the hospital. I stayed for two weeks before I was released. A couple of weeks after I got out, two neighbors were fighting in the hallway and decided it would be a great idea to try to kick my door in. I called the cops several times and they said they couldn’t do anything even though one of the times they caught the person in action.

The next day I packed a bag and went to Ds mom’s house where I basically lived for 8 months until I found this apartment. The rent is higher here but I can manage. A month after I moved in, D’s mom got new furniture and gave me her old set (a sectional, a couch and a love seat), I wouldn’t been able to fit all of it into my old apartment.

I had to do a recovery on my laptop to fix the issue that I couldn’t play the sims. I can play now. Im so sorry I haven’t been blogging more often. I’ll probably blog once a week from now on.

Self care and stuff

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So it’s been awhile since I blogged, I’ve been so stressed out over finding an apartment. I definitely need my own space again. Well I’ve found one and was just waiting for the background and credit check to go through.

Yesterday I got the call, I was approved for the apartment. Now I just have to wait for BMHA who I get section 8 through to inspect and approve my voucher. I also have to apply for a security agreement through social services.

I’ve been doing a lot of self care and self growth recently. I want to get back into skincare but I think I’m going to wait until I’m in my own some again. It’s been stressful here.

Hopefully I can get back into blogging more regularly.

Still here

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I moved out of my old apartment and still staying with friends. I’m still looking for a new apartment and not having much luck. My birthday is on Thursday but I probably won’t do anything for it.

Major Update

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Okay so it’s been awhile. I’m still smoking and I’m staying with D’s family because I’m being harassed at my apartment building. So I’ve been here since Friday so almost a week. I’m hoping I can get a voucher to move from BMHA and get a new apartment. D and I aren’t together anymore. I’ll write more when I can.

Not going so well

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So I’ve been trying to quit smoking but haven’t completely stopped yet. I smoked a lot today. I also think I’m getting sick, I woke up today with a sore throat and achy body. It’s probably bronchitis again.

I’ve been on YouTube a lot, yesterday and most of the day today. I’ve been watching a vlogger, Carins corner. I enjoy her videos a lot.

I’m also trying to do surveys again, I stopped doing them for awhile but I miss giving my opinion, and making extra cash.

I’m trying

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I know my blog posts have been lacking, my laptop is broken. I have to type posts out on my tiny phone. I want to get back into planning out blog posts and blogging twice a week again.

I’ve been wanting and trying to quit smoking. I’ve been taking chantix again and praying that it helps me quit. I’m honestly sick of my whole life revolving around whether I have cigarettes or not. I’d save so much money. Plus I’m really close to the age when my dad passed from lung cancer.

My mental health has been taking hit, I’ve been cutting again and I’m so mad at myself for it. For those who know me, self harm is something I’ve been struggling with since I was a pre teen. Part of me wants to bring it up in therapy but I feel like my therapist is so judgmental. I miss my old therapist and it seems like since she left its all been misses and I can’t connect to anyone.

My physical health hasn’t been that great either. My allergies have been acting up and so has my arthritis. Some days I can barely move and I feel like no one understands.

My Birthday

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My birthday turned out really good. My mom gave a 50 dollar gift card for Amazon so I used that to order some things I wanted and I ordered someone something in a gifters group I’m in.

I ended up with two cakes and more gifts then I thought I would. It was a really good day.

Update about nothing

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I’ve been up to absolutely nothing. I have been staying at home. My area is under a stay at home order so unless I need to go out for something I don’t.

There are currently four positive cases in my building. I have been mostly in my apartment and spend my days reading, streaming something, listening to music and chatting with friends on WhatsApp.

Honestly the highlight of my week is virtual slumber parties every Saturday on WhatsApp that last 24 hrs.

I have also started to get a subscription box from Universal Yums. Of course I got the most expensive box and it’s well worth the money.

I hope everyone is staying safe and home as much as possible.

There is a lot going on

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To start I’m sorry I haven’t really been posting. I have a lot going on. To start the building I live in as become a shit show. I feel like I’m living in a college dorm.

People are grown as fuck but still bad mouthing others, starting rumors and acting like children. To be honest I’m over it.

My next door neighbors are driving me crazy. The women on the right is constantly throwing temper tantrums in the hallway and is convinced I hate her cause she’s Puerto Rican. I was like what? My son is half Puerto Rican. You can’t be serious. I don’t hate anyone but I don’t give respect to people who constantly disrespect me. Period.

The guy on the left doesn’t understand what an inside voice is. Like he is so fucking loud especially in the middle of the night. It’s making me lose sleep and I can’t handle this.

Management doesn’t give a fuck. Plus now I’m sick again and feel like complete crap.

One of my online friends passed away in February so I’ve been talking to other women who knew her. I have a bunch of crap hitting me all at once and it’s making me not want to do anything.

So I’m sorry that I’m not as active as I once was with this blog. I’ll do better in the future.