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Self care and stuff

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So it’s been awhile since I blogged, I’ve been so stressed out over finding an apartment. I definitely need my own space again. Well I’ve found one and was just waiting for the background and credit check to go through.

Yesterday I got the call, I was approved for the apartment. Now I just have to wait for BMHA who I get section 8 through to inspect and approve my voucher. I also have to apply for a security agreement through social services.

I’ve been doing a lot of self care and self growth recently. I want to get back into skincare but I think I’m going to wait until I’m in my own some again. It’s been stressful here.

Hopefully I can get back into blogging more regularly.

Still here

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I moved out of my old apartment and still staying with friends. I’m still looking for a new apartment and not having much luck. My birthday is on Thursday but I probably won’t do anything for it.

Major Update

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Okay so it’s been awhile. I’m still smoking and I’m staying with D’s family because I’m being harassed at my apartment building. So I’ve been here since Friday so almost a week. I’m hoping I can get a voucher to move from BMHA and get a new apartment. D and I aren’t together anymore. I’ll write more when I can.

Not going so well

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So I’ve been trying to quit smoking but haven’t completely stopped yet. I smoked a lot today. I also think I’m getting sick, I woke up today with a sore throat and achy body. It’s probably bronchitis again.

I’ve been on YouTube a lot, yesterday and most of the day today. I’ve been watching a vlogger, Carins corner. I enjoy her videos a lot.

I’m also trying to do surveys again, I stopped doing them for awhile but I miss giving my opinion, and making extra cash.

I’m trying

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I know my blog posts have been lacking, my laptop is broken. I have to type posts out on my tiny phone. I want to get back into planning out blog posts and blogging twice a week again.

I’ve been wanting and trying to quit smoking. I’ve been taking chantix again and praying that it helps me quit. I’m honestly sick of my whole life revolving around whether I have cigarettes or not. I’d save so much money. Plus I’m really close to the age when my dad passed from lung cancer.

My mental health has been taking hit, I’ve been cutting again and I’m so mad at myself for it. For those who know me, self harm is something I’ve been struggling with since I was a pre teen. Part of me wants to bring it up in therapy but I feel like my therapist is so judgmental. I miss my old therapist and it seems like since she left its all been misses and I can’t connect to anyone.

My physical health hasn’t been that great either. My allergies have been acting up and so has my arthritis. Some days I can barely move and I feel like no one understands.

My Birthday

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My birthday turned out really good. My mom gave a 50 dollar gift card for Amazon so I used that to order some things I wanted and I ordered someone something in a gifters group I’m in.

I ended up with two cakes and more gifts then I thought I would. It was a really good day.

Update about nothing

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I’ve been up to absolutely nothing. I have been staying at home. My area is under a stay at home order so unless I need to go out for something I don’t.

There are currently four positive cases in my building. I have been mostly in my apartment and spend my days reading, streaming something, listening to music and chatting with friends on WhatsApp.

Honestly the highlight of my week is virtual slumber parties every Saturday on WhatsApp that last 24 hrs.

I have also started to get a subscription box from Universal Yums. Of course I got the most expensive box and it’s well worth the money.

I hope everyone is staying safe and home as much as possible.

There is a lot going on

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To start I’m sorry I haven’t really been posting. I have a lot going on. To start the building I live in as become a shit show. I feel like I’m living in a college dorm.

People are grown as fuck but still bad mouthing others, starting rumors and acting like children. To be honest I’m over it.

My next door neighbors are driving me crazy. The women on the right is constantly throwing temper tantrums in the hallway and is convinced I hate her cause she’s Puerto Rican. I was like what? My son is half Puerto Rican. You can’t be serious. I don’t hate anyone but I don’t give respect to people who constantly disrespect me. Period.

The guy on the left doesn’t understand what an inside voice is. Like he is so fucking loud especially in the middle of the night. It’s making me lose sleep and I can’t handle this.

Management doesn’t give a fuck. Plus now I’m sick again and feel like complete crap.

One of my online friends passed away in February so I’ve been talking to other women who knew her. I have a bunch of crap hitting me all at once and it’s making me not want to do anything.

So I’m sorry that I’m not as active as I once was with this blog. I’ll do better in the future.

My life.

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So I hate this fucking building, this is worse then the time my landlord had me arrested when she couldn’t evict me. I’ve had people tell me that I shouldn’t post this online but I have reached my breaking point. And I no longer give a fuck or any fucks really.

I have lived here for six years, two new people now live next door to me and they are fucking loud, disrespectful and horrible. I’m the past week I have gotten into it with both of them and I no longer feel comfortable. I don’t want to live here, I literally can’t even cough in my own apartment without an issue.

I’m stuck here until July. I am going to talk to management but I know they won’t do anything. I’ve been accused of being prejudice against Puerto Ricans. What?! My son is half Puerto Rican. I am at a loss.

One of them is smoking crack or cooking crack, I don’t know but my apartment smells like crack on a regular basis.

I’m so over this situation.