Inside look at something personal

The last couple days have been really stressful and I have posted a couple of tweets that ranted to the way I have been feeling. I have a certain friend who thinks that she knows my man & my relationship better then me. I have spoken to her on several occasions and told her I didn’t like that and not to do that. I try to keep my personal life and struggles off of this blog and off of social media for the simple fact that what I am going through another bitch don’t need to know. However I’ve been stressed and I just need to vent.

The first thing is my SO has a drinking problem as far as he blacks out, doesn’t remember doing stuff and it effects our personal relationship, his family & friends. I think what happened last night and the results of that really made him realize that he can’t drink anymore. Some people can’t drink, I am one of those people. Like him I have a temper and when I drink, I don’t think and I will act fist and deal with the aftermath later. I’ve been asked why I don’t drink anymore, this is the reason why.

Now, this friend has made a couple of comments about how my man can handle liquor like she knows him better then I do. I feel like she’s trying to micro manage my relationship and I hate that shit. Anyone whose been around my SO when he was drunk on more then one occasion have told him they think he shouldn’t drink.

I am over this situation, and let me make myself perfectly clear…at this point I am super grateful that as much as I rant about how horrible this building is….everyone minds their own business in here. I am friendly with just about everyone on the floor I am on and have apologized to them.

I wanted to make a generalized post about this situation as I know people in my building visit my blog and my twitter.

Five Things I Love ; Shopping Edition

I really like shopping in general but I don’t like crowds, loud people, annoying shoppers, little kids (and parents who let them run wild) so I would much rather shop online. I can order whatever I want and get it delivered to my apartment building. Today’s Five Things I love post is the top five websites I use to shop online starting with the one I use the most.

 

Amazon ; For a couple of years I just used Amazon to buy ebooks but then I started using the site to buy actual books after my move where I lost everything (including a lot of books i’ve had since childhood). I bought a bunch hard copies of my favorites and some new authors I enjoyed that I had ebook versions of. In October of 2016 I won an amazon giftcard from a sweepstakes I entered and I got a couple of toys for my nephew’s and Niece’s. From there I started ordering actual items (candy from China), Beauty tools, ect with amazon gift cards or paypal cash I earned from doing surveys.

LaneBryant ; I have to shop here, they are the only store that carries jeans tall enough for me and they carry plus size. I normally don’t buy clothes (jeans) online because if they don’t fit then its a pain to send back for a refund or different pair. I trust them enough to order online and know they will be long enough.

Payless ; They are cheap, always have things on sale and I love shoes. I am always on their website adding things to my wishlist.4

Bath & Body Works ; I have boxes of stuff from here, for awhile I had a shopping problem when it came to this site both online and in the store. I have a body butter addiction and a body spray one too, I have a problem. I like to smell good, sue me.

Rainbow ; I normally shop in store here but I always look at their website to find out what is on sale and what location the product is at.

Five Things I love; Online Edition

I am trying to come up with original topics to blog about while still keeping my blog somewhat personal, I know a lot of people online today like to make money with their websites but I have my own way of making money and getting things. If you follow me on twitter or have been reading my blog since I was at L0vestrukk.net you know how I get down. So I really like lists which is somewhat weird considering I am very unorganized offline and somewhat messy which drives SO up the wall but online I like to keep my stuff somewhat organized and in folders.

So for today’s Five things I love and Can’t live without post I am going to list products and websites that make my life easier online, for this website and other things.

 

  • Gmail: I have used a lot of companies for email (yahoo,hotpop,hotmail,msn,outlook) but gmail is still my favorite for the simple fact that I can make as many emails as I want. I have several gmail emails, I have my main one which I check daily and I use for surveys, sweepstakes and this site. I have my group/personal one which I use for an RTA group I am in and my book groups on yahoo, I have the one I use strictly for amazon and then I have my misc one that I use for everything else. I hated how gmail groups everything by conversation but I recently figured out how to change that in settings…it’s perfect.

 

  •  Core FTP:  Other FTP programs never seem to work for me so I keep trying them but end up going back to Core. The main reason is it’s 100% FREE. I like free.

 

  • CoffeeCup HTML Editor: I have always written HTML by hand but Notepad annoys me and this program is free also sometimes I make an error (we all do) and CoffeeCup catches it and lets me know.

 

  • Betternet VPN: I have a TV show and Movie addiction and sometimes I use torrents, this program which is also free blocks my IP address so no one can see what I am downloading. It is simply wonderful…

 

  • Canva:    A  lot of bloggers use this site and a lot of writers too, my list wouldn’t be complete would a mention of it. When I used to publish my novels on Wattpad I would use it to make ebook covers for my books. Now I use it to make twitter headers for my profile page. You can make just about any graphic you what using this site…they have a lot of premade things you can use for free and you can play around with text too.

 

That is it for my list of online tools, which online tools can you not live without? Leave your list in the comments.

Seven things I wish everyone I knew about me; Part two

I hate my name and when people mispronounce it

Yes, My name is the title of a song..well aware. Please stop mentioning it and singing it to me. No I wasn’t named after the song, I was named after my grandfather. My name is pronounced how it is spelled, this is especially annoying when I am right in front of you and tell you my name and people always repeat it back wrong. When someone repeats it back right I feel like congratulating them on winning. It has gotten to the point where if you haven’t heard me after the third time and still say it wrong, call me whatever you want..joanne; fine whatever. I’ll answer.

 

I have owned over thirty websites & a domain

I have been making websites since 1998 and have owned many personal sites (all hosted, by many different people), fansites, fanlistings and I had a domain for a year when I was seventeen.

 

 

I completed a book series when I was eighteen

The series was Cast Of Love and Had five books…it was complete. I began writing it when I was thirteen years old and completed book five at eighteen. Unfortunately the series was on my computer when it crashed and I lost everything including the series. The series featured two twin girls in high school; Mindy and Ronnie. I have considered updating and bring the series back…maybe I will.

 

I taught myself HTML from a book when I was thirteen

My father helped me build a one page webpage when I was thirteen years old on his work domain, in 1996 and then gave me a book on HTML and from there I taught myself to code.

 

It annoys me when people believe blogs didn’t exist before 2007

I read a blog post last week where someone was giving their blogging history and there was a quote in there that said something like blogging wasn’t a thing before 2007..ah blogging has been around since the late 90s. There is an article floating around about the history of blogs…gotta find the link.

 

I hate when people lie and then when caught they try to backtrack

Don’t lie to me, just don’t do it. Truth always comes out in the end and is it really worth it to tell me you saw my cousin when you know you didn’t; like I don’t talk to her?

 

When people try to talk to people through me

SO has this friend who messages me on FB to deliver messages to him, like he did tonight. Last time he messaged me I got called a bitch…boo you have his number, you know where we live..i’m not message girl.

Otherwise perfect books ruined by an out of nowhere x-rated scene

Everyone who knows me knows that I would rather stay home and read then do just about anything else,including dealing with people…sleeping when I should…eating when I should, I can go on but I won’t. I try to branch out to new authors and subscribe to a number of author newsletters, follow some authors on twitter, facebook, bookbub, goodreads, ect. There is a very good reason why I tend to stick to the same authors though, I call them my TOP TWO and those are Victoria Laurie and Kimberly Raye.

That reason is they write about sex without me feeling like I stumbled onto a porno in book form, these two are what I call perfect authors…Kimberly Raye uses a bit more detail then Victoria does, but it’s not overly x-rated…it doesn’t make me feel like I need to take a shower afterward.

You can write about sex without the details, I as a reader don’t want to know how big his dick is or how wet she is…really? let us use our imagination, that is the best part of reading a book is picturing it in my head…you are painting way to many details…

Did you know you can get FREE magazine subscriptions?

I love reading magazines but sometimes paying for magazine subscriptions are an expense that we just can’t afford. That is where https://rewardsurvey.com/ comes in. I have been using this site for over a year and I have boxes upon boxes of magazines from it. All of those magazines I got with reward points. All you have to do is sign up with them (it’s 100% free) and then fill out surveys every week and rack up 30 reward points per survey.

They have a lot of popular magazines available, most free..sometimes you have to pay a 99 cent processing fee. Just cancel when the subscription expires and you won’t have to pay another cent ever.

They offer both physical magazines & digital.

Sims 4 Stuff Pack of your choice Giveaway

It’s been awhile since I’ve done a game giveaway and I’m feeling in a giving mood today, so I am running a special Sims 4 Stuff Pack of your choice giveway. The Giveaway will run One Month, it will end on Christmas eve ; December 24th, 2017 and entries will close at midnight.

The winner will be chosen at Random and will be able to pick any sims 4 stuff pack they want, I will then email the prize and they can claim via Origin.

To Enter all you need to do is;

  1. Comment, Leave your name & email that you check often, also comment and tell me if you win what stuff pack you would like.
  2.  Share this post with your friends or on social media.

The Winner will be contacted on Christmas day. Good Luck.

Three YouTube Let’s Play Gamer’s I love

I spend more time watching LP’s then I do playing games and these are the three people I watch before I watch anyone else.

Xurbansimsx – https://www.youtube.com/user/XUrbanSimsX

Why I watch: Her game play is different, it is filled with drama and keeps me interested. She’s funny and she’s real. Her videos aren’t over edited and she knows how to laugh at herself if she mispronounces something like a name or a word.

What is my favorite Lp: The Springston Legacy challenge

Other Lp’s to check out: The bachelor/bachelorette challenges, City living Lp & Cats & Dogs LP

Other places to find her: http://www.xurbansimsx.com/  https://twitter.com/xurbansimsx

 

Lifesimmer – https://www.youtube.com/user/LifeSimmer/

Why I watch: Her gameplay keeps me interested, I would rather watch her play then play the sims myself. My own gameplay is never as interesting as hers.

What is my favorite LP: Get Together

Other Lp’s to check out: Cat’s & Dogs

Other places to find her: https://twitter.com/Lifesimmer

 

SpringSims – https://www.youtube.com/user/SpringSims1/

Why I watch: He is funny, he updates a lot and his builds are amazing.

What is my favorite Lp: The sims 4 Parenthood

Other Lp’s to check out: The sims 4 cats & Dogs

Other places to find him: https://springsims.com/  https://twitter.com/spring_sims

 

Check all three of them out, you won’t be disappointed. Who are your favorite youtube gamers? leave in the comments.

Seven things I wish that everyone knew about me

I really hate when people comment on my height:

I know I am tall but stop asking me how tall I am and making dumb comments about it. You can’t find anything else to ask me about that doesn’t relate to my height like my name.

I don’t mind helping people but I hate being taken advantage of:

I have a big heart when it comes to helping people and I always get fucked over or taken advantage of. People seem to thing I am supposed to help them because we are friends but when I do, I never get the help in return if I need it.

I have been blogging since I was sixteen 

I have been making websites since 1998 and blogging since 1999, before wordpress. I actually used to blog by hand, manually and used javascript comment popups.

I am really lazy and unmotivated at times

Sometimes I don’t want to do anything which makes it hard being a writer and owning a blog. I have to force myself to blog sometimes and I have a million novels that are half completed. This annoys my SO btw, he is the complete opposite of me.

I was bullied in school

I don’t like to talk about it but I had a couple of experiences that were horrible for me and is one of the reasons why I dropped out of high school at seventeen. One of the more damaging was when I was in the fifth grade and hit in the eye with an acorn by an eighteen year old, when I was walking back to my aunts house from the bus stop after school.

I was in an abusive relationship

For three years I was in an emotional and physically abusive relationship, even over ten years later it still gets swept under the rug by him and his family.

I have a hard time opening up to people

I have been hurt a lot by people who were really close to me so when people ask me why I like them or love them, I can’t put it in to words. I guard my heart really carefully because of things that happened in the past by people I trusted with my life.

 

 

There’s a look into me, I am trying to come up with new post topics and being more open about myself on this blog. Hope that you enjoyed this post.

How NOT to deal with bad neighbors

It’s six in the morning and you have just been woken up yet again by a neighbor who has their TV so loud it is shaking the furniture in your apartment and you have just snapped since you have to deal with this shit every fucking day.

You can call management but management doesn’t give a fuck and won’t do shit, so what do you do?

You can do what I did and pound on the wall and yell at them to turn their TV down….maybe it will work or maybe they will just turn it up louder.

You can wish that the TV speakers will blow which is a possibility considering that they sound like shit.

You can get yourself some earplugs and deal with it.